But I won't let myself become resigned to melancholia. I think its time to write something. I used to write all the time in High school, it was fun, all sorts of wild stories, totally off the wall stuff. Past 10 years or so, its sort of dried up. I'm not sure whether I've lost my sense of carefree happiness, or whether I just never was much good and when I try to write with serious intentions it just never was all that serious.